Roundabouts.

SInce the last post, it's been ups & downs. It's been puzzling of late though. Oh well, what can i do? I can just hope and go with the flow. Good or bad, i still have to accept it. To love someone really takes a whole lot.

The band has been doing well. The chemistry's still strong as ever. Recording's almost done. Really awesome. I need to improve on my part. 2 gigs coming up yet still no sense of excitement whatsoever. Hah.

Work's been really dull. Shitty almost. Can't wait fer my band commitments to settle and go pursue a full-time job. Yay!!

Not much to say as you've noticed. So yea..

See ya.

Buggered

Well, we managed to get the rough idea of the new song today. Im glad it turned out fine. Really wished the keys was there to back it up but that will come soon enough. Hmm..so i guess we'll scrap up the other new song then since you think it's a nice mix of genres. Which i agree now when i played it back. Thanks for that.

S'been a long long time since i last chilled out till the wee hours with my pals. Well, pal for that matter since the other couldn't make it. Overall, it was great! Even after over 10 years of friendship, we still had so much to talk about!! Maybe that long relationship was why we had so much to say. Heh. Would definitely wanna chill out like that sometime soon!! And make it very soon please! Heee.

And honey, stop taking back your words or contradicting 'em. You wanna give me space. So where izzit? Sometimes i really do not understand your actions. And somehow, your words would turn around and make me the guilty party instead. I try to be calm but you keep testing me. It's not funny. Ha Ha. You tell me you can't control it. Well, that's still not a reason good enough to cover it up.

You like meeting new friends. Who doesn't? And please, i'm not jealous. AT ALL!! So please stop taunting me 'bout me being all green-eyed. It's like a total insult to me when you taunt me like that. I'm constantly trying my very best to accomodate yer wants & needs. So please.

Spare me.

Out Of Control

It's christmas yet again. I'm not joyous, yet that is, 'cause im seriously broke. And i feel fucked up 'bout it 'cause i can't give presents the same time or rather at the correct time. Fucked up. S'gonna be like post-xmas pre-newyear( at least i hope) kinda gifts. Dang. What a major turn-off.

I hope my salary that i'll be recieving this month will put a big smile on my face. It hasnt been like that for the past 2 months. Fucked up yet again. I'm sure i worked more, way more in fact, last month. So please..please..Argh!!

The band's like on automatic xmas break right now. Gotta jam next week though for our set on the 6th. (Jan). Please don't postpone it again. I still can't come up with a new tune. Wonder what's wrong with me. Fucked up. (How many times already?!)

Princess!! Such a darling you are. January is gonna be a month piled with joyous activities!! With you and the band!! I seriously can't wait for it to happen!! Wooohooo!! It's so gonna be amazing!! I love you sweetie. I love you So SO much!! YAY!!

In The Wilderness

Lately, the weather has been really gloomy. That really sucked 'cause that made my mood shitty as well. A certain aged female isn't helping either. As much as i did to please her, it just went unnoticed. To top it off, i was considered selfish. This is what i'd call " Waddefuck" I guessed ive only achieved in wasting my time. Oh well.

The band has been doing really well of late. Though i really can't concote a new song, i'm still happy at how we are progressing. This is turning out to be the band i've always wanted. Awesome. Thank you guys for having faith in my compositions. I've never felt more encouraged in a band before. Thank you.

And of course, the love of my precious life. You! You are the reason behind the stretches of my smiles!! I thank God for having you loving me so so much. No one. No one in the politically incorrect world could replace you & your showers of true love.

I love you princess. I So love you.

I was trashed by the dolls.

Recently, we had a band meeting. A casual one to me. Although i liked their dreams & goals 'bout the band, i think they dream too much. Ahhaa!! Relax, don't get me wrong. What i meant was you guys are a tad too serious. We're suppose to have fun. Which we do have actually. Questioning me bout my future with the band right now just irks me. Chill. Just keep jamming & gigging and mix some recordings. So..yea. We aint even a year old yet. :D

Plainess

Just a word to sum it all.


Stupid.

Frequencies.

Just when i was about to join my old job back..this new shit came to interfere and made me reconsider again. Dang. So i decided to stay for a while more and see how it really goes. The pay's not bad considering the hours and work that i need to accomplish. It's cool really.

Though i haven't been exploring much music lately, i still manage to squeeze in some creativity into my songwriting. I don't know how but i just do. I guess it helps to work in a music store and being able to just pick up a guitar and strum whatever that comes to mind. Really awesome i must say.

My band's having a few gigs and maybe more due to interested parties that popped up outta nowhere. I enjoy gigging for sure. But the effort & commitment needed to get ready for one bugs me due to the time constraint. It ain't that bad now but it'll be slightly worse in the near future. Overall, i definitely want DollTrash to go somewhere.

My darling princess has been spending time with me everyday for the past 2 months!! I simply loved it!! I can't believe we still feel as if we've just fallen in love yesterday. It's growing every single day!! The love is growing epidemically!! Wowweee!! It's a real motivation in life for us. It really keeps me going. The power of it is overwhelming.
Wow. I love you sweetie. Forever & ever.