Out Of Control

It's christmas yet again. I'm not joyous, yet that is, 'cause im seriously broke. And i feel fucked up 'bout it 'cause i can't give presents the same time or rather at the correct time. Fucked up. S'gonna be like post-xmas pre-newyear( at least i hope) kinda gifts. Dang. What a major turn-off.

I hope my salary that i'll be recieving this month will put a big smile on my face. It hasnt been like that for the past 2 months. Fucked up yet again. I'm sure i worked more, way more in fact, last month. So please..please..Argh!!

The band's like on automatic xmas break right now. Gotta jam next week though for our set on the 6th. (Jan). Please don't postpone it again. I still can't come up with a new tune. Wonder what's wrong with me. Fucked up. (How many times already?!)

Princess!! Such a darling you are. January is gonna be a month piled with joyous activities!! With you and the band!! I seriously can't wait for it to happen!! Wooohooo!! It's so gonna be amazing!! I love you sweetie. I love you So SO much!! YAY!!

In The Wilderness

Lately, the weather has been really gloomy. That really sucked 'cause that made my mood shitty as well. A certain aged female isn't helping either. As much as i did to please her, it just went unnoticed. To top it off, i was considered selfish. This is what i'd call " Waddefuck" I guessed ive only achieved in wasting my time. Oh well.

The band has been doing really well of late. Though i really can't concote a new song, i'm still happy at how we are progressing. This is turning out to be the band i've always wanted. Awesome. Thank you guys for having faith in my compositions. I've never felt more encouraged in a band before. Thank you.

And of course, the love of my precious life. You! You are the reason behind the stretches of my smiles!! I thank God for having you loving me so so much. No one. No one in the politically incorrect world could replace you & your showers of true love.

I love you princess. I So love you.